1st Attempt: Writing Lyrics!

Never be the same again…
Never be the same…

Will I ever be the same?
The person that you knew, 
On the day when we met.

What is it about you,
What is it about me,
Still about you and me?
Where is the me and you,
On the day when we met.

There were the times of us,
It was the love between us.
The love we had,
Is it still with us,
Do we still have it with us?

The distance between us,
Further it is of you and me.
The days we are together,
Are we still in love,
Do we still have it in us?

To love, to love,
What is love,
Where is our love,
My love, my love.
Is it still the same?

Do we still love?
Like we used to,
Love each other.
Is it still the same?

It’s not the same…
Never be the same…


Love vs. Hate; Happiness vs. Pain

It’s been a while that I wrote a blog post.  I’ve changed the format.  Using the more quick way in voicing myself.  It’s social media instead. On Facebook (EGLEarnold) and twitter (Arnold_Mok).  Since I’ve been hospitalized, very much bed-bounded, with the need to use of a wheelchair, there’s not much to do.  TV, lots of TV and lots of network news.  Reading a little on news articles online.  Got me to become vocal on social media on what’s happening and on current events.

Anyway.  As the title suggests.  When does love become hate?  When does the feeling of happy become the aches of pain?

Denial.  Ignorance.  Confrontation.  And there’s no change.  Continuance of the same cycle.  Over and over again.  Until it’s unbearable, mentally and psychologically torturing.  It could be a type of violence.  Even with all the love you have, giving it all you can to a relationship.  Do you think that love will become hate?  Then, what happens?  As painful as it is, you cut the cord.  Oh shit… then, you realize it’s a dependent or a co-dependent relationship.  It’s going to get messy.  Oh let’s try… let’s try to work on things.  Let’s try to rekindle what’s lost.  Well, there you go, when it’s lost a long time ago, why bother.  Don’t bother.  Where is the love gonna be?  Will it magically land on you and the relationship again?  You better hope that there are sparks of fondness and love again somehow, somewhere.  If not, the love that used to be there just slowly turns into animosity, and depending on severity, to probably, hate.

You ask yourself.  Is it you and/or is it me?  Can we work on things?  Can we save the relationship?  I suppose, it’s asking, can you and I break the cycle of things, and on what was mentioned above.  Sometimes, it’s better to be apart, than to force things through, isn’t it.  And, this goes to say, forcing “the so-called” happiness through, does it equal to pain instead.

Being happy.  You wake up in the morning, feeling energized with sunny weather outside.  That could be a feeling of happiness, I would think.  Where it’s another day, another day of opportunity, that will bring you fun, excitement, or joy in whatever it is you’re doing.  Happiness is that simple, as to opening a bottle, a can of Coca-Cola.  The advertising campaign for years have been suggesting that happiness is this simple by “open happiness”, have a Coke, share a Coke.  What makes you happy?  What makes me happy?  In a relationship that is.  Have you asked these questions.  Are we expecting too much, are we expecting too little.  Are we receiving, are we giving — enough happiness.

On the flip side of things, the other side of happiness are, probably, depressed feelings.  Depending on the severity of depressional  thoughts, I think it becomes the feeling of pain.  There are many forms of pain.  There are many ways that we can inflict pain on others, in a relationship.  Unless you have some fetish on this, pain is not a thing that you’d like to bear too much, for too long.  You might become violent towards each other, or even suicidal, just because it’s too much to bear.  From emotional pain to physical pain to violence pain, it could all be inflicted in a relationship.

But why do we inflict pain on someone?  Or, on the other side, give happiness?  Does it come together now, when we think of happiness versus pain and then between love versus hate.  There is some connection.  I think there are plenty of examples in TV drama and in reality series that show this.  Somehow writers and actors are able to fully express this and make us glue onto the TV.  And then, sometimes I ask myself (and do you?), would I ever do that?  Well, that needs an extra pillow plopped up before bed-time and have a good think.  If there are thoughts of certain things, that are extreme, you might like to cool it down, on either love or hate, happiness or pain.  It’s not healthy and you probably need some therapist time to talk it through…

Eternal Life: The Love of your Life



My early morning cigarette on the sidewalk came across this:


It’s not about God nor his Son, Jesus that stirred up my mind.  It’s the ‘eternal life’ that did.  Then I quickly searched ‘eternal life’ on Google, quickly went through it.  I only did go through the books from the New Testament since this verse is from the New Testament.

It seems to me that none of the books really addressed on how to obtain this ‘eternal life’.  This is strictly personal opinion.  Nothing against any religion, faith or belief.


Eternal life, to me, is finding a purpose in life.  The purpose is that God has granted you and me a life to live.


Yes, in scientific terms is the sperm and the egg meets; cells begin to multiply to form an embryo and so forth… But the miracle of a chance that the sperm and the egg meets is by chance or in the hands of God?  Then, one might ask that the miracle that out of all the humans in the world, the opportunity that you and me are able to find the one person that carries the miracle of creating a life is a miracle itself?


I believe that God not only gave us an opportunity to live in this world but that we are all born with a positive outlook in life in living that purpose of doing good deeds.  New borns are all born with the first gasp of oxygen, it’s like a deep breath that we all do when times are tough, doesn’t it?  It tells me that since the day that we are born, life is tough and it’s never easy.  Then, (I think) since I’ve never been in a delivery room, where new borns starts to cry?  An additional aspect that life is not only tough as shit but we are destined to shed quite a few tears with pain.  However, most of us are then cleaned up and wrapped in soft linen and held in the arms of our mothers and fathers.  That’s an encouraging thought, isn’t it?


To me, if the concepts of a positive outlook, a purpose in life, doing good deeds are all in our hearts and mind, aren’t we following the footsteps of the Son of God, Jesus Christ.  This actually came up while I had a discussion with one of my cousin.  She asked me my views on Jesus.  This was what I answered.


Then the question becomes: There’s only one Jesus, one Son of God, or that anyone can be the Son/Daughter of God if we all emulate the good deeds that Jesus did according to his disciples on the different books in The Bible?


‘Eternal life’ might be being able to ‘Rest in Peace’.  Whether heaven exists or not, who knows.  However, being able to be in ‘peace’ is probably that you have nothing in your mind before your last breath on Earth.  The rest is leaving in the hands of God?


This quote comes to mind as I write about this topic:

“To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded!”

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Well, what does this quote have to do with anything on ‘eternal life’?  It’s on success.  The success of living a life that has a positive outlook, a purpose in life, doing good deeds is a form of defining success with a condition that you might be able to ‘rest in peace’ that leads to ‘eternal life’ in the hands of God?


One last thought on ‘eternal life’ is being able to be with your loved ones?  Finding those who love you for who you are and you loving them for who they are does help along the tough road in life.  These are the ones that helps us to continue our road to possibly become a son/daughter of God.


Out of the loved ones,
there is always one very special and dear to you?
Who would that be?
The love of your life.